How Does It Feel to Lose the One You Love?

"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Death ends a life not a relationship" 
— Mitch Albom

I came across  Lorna Tolentino's Twitpic account while I was passively browse the internet for anything that could occupy my spare time and I saw her posted old pictures of her with husband who passed away because of cancer. It saddened me to see all those old photos with all these sad captions and then this random thought came to mind: how is it to lose the one you love? More specifically, how does it feel when the one you love dies?

How does it feel when everything between you two is doing great, you're all happy and in love more than anyone could love another and then suddenly he/she is taken away from you? In just a snap, just like that--no heartfelt goodbyes, no I-will-wait-for-you-in-heaven promises.

How does it feel that after a decade or more of being together, you will no longer hear the sound of his smelly fart and annoying burp. Or the sound of his loud, disturbing snore that you thought would never let you fall into a deep sleep but later on began to be a comforting sound that makes you feel secure, that you will never have to sleep alone again. How does it feel that after so many years of being together you won't ever have the chance to touch his face along with his mustache you always reminded him to shave regularly, to see his haircut you've been dying to change for a long time. How does it feel when you no longer have someone to argue with, to have petty fights with, to tease endlessly and have them tease you back? How does it feel that after those many comfortable years, you won't be able to see his smile or hear his contagious laugh that would make you want to get up in bed and start another day with him?

I guess there really are some things you just can't seem to move on from. There are some things or people that will forever linger to your mind and to your soul. And when they're gone, all you can do is to bear the pain every single day until that pain seems to be a lot more bearable than it was yesterday. I guess all you can do is to succumb in all the memories you two had shared to fill that emptiness inside.  I guess all you can do is hope that someday, you will be together again at some place you can both call your heaven.

Lastly, I just want to share this ad which I thought was really heartfelt and brilliant. At the end of the day, as what Russel of Disney's Up said, sometimes it is the boring stuff you remember the most.

And I thought this blog is supposed to be amusing. God, this post is miserable...and so am I.